Transformations

As my life is transforming, so is my art. I am finding myself completely bored with my old work and looking for ways to push it to a level that it has never been. During this past year, it has been very difficult focusing on anything other than just trying to take care of myself, which was probably a huge mistake as my art has always helped me escape my life and go to a place where I am happy. I am feeling the need to work more abstractly as well. focusing on composition, color and rhythm within my work. I don't want to be tied to a subject matter, as I feel that will come later. I have started a series of Mantras that I am feeling compelled to continue with.

A year of many changes

This is a transition year for me. I will turn 50 in 7 months which is a major milestone. I have just come out of a 16 yr marriage where I was lied to, cheated on and manipulated in every way possible. I am not writing this for a pity party, I am writing this as a documentation of my journey to recovery and happiness during this phase of my life. I feel the need to be brutally honest with myself here and anyone who reads this. I could write all this in my own personal journal, but I am hoping that perhaps there are others out here who may be able to identify and relate to my situation.

As proof of my out of control life, my weight has skyrocketed to my all time high. I have taken steps to recapture that control and have realized that I can not tackle my weight issues alone. I have sought help with this part, as I have come to learn in my 49 yrs of life, there is nothing wrong in asking for help.

I believe and strongly feel that I am on the cusp of something great and extraordinary. I just feel it in my bones. I am not sure what is about to happen, but I truly believe I am embarking on something spectacular. This path I am currently on will lead me there.

I have spent the last few months obsessing about my failed marriage and what things I could have done differently. I have finally realized that these were things out of my control since I was manipulated and lied to throughout my marriage. I didn't live the lie, he did, I only lived the consequences. Over the course of the last few months, I have checked phone records, bank accounts and credit reports searching for answers that I was wrong about my marriage. Every shred of information I found, only served to reaffirm my suspicions of betrayal and deception. This was extremely sad, however it is serving to help me realize that I am no longer powerless in my journey and that I can now put that relationship behind me and rid myself of all the toxic relationships in my life that were a part of that history. Today marks the beginning of my new journey.

Looking for Balance...

“When you lose touch with yourself, you lose yourself in the world.” ~ Eckhart Tolle

Still feeling displaced and not quite fitting in anywhere except in the depths of my imaginary world, where all is balanced, where I am centered and focused and at peace. A joyful place where I can breathe and escape from all the craziness in my life. Where the trees of life are filled with rich color and full of fruit and flowers, where the waters run deep and the fields run wild. Deep in the realm of my imagination when all is right in this world and the world I create is perfect...

Life moves on...

Still setting up my new studio. Lots of changes, but it is great to be back in FL. Many changes have taken place in the past year. I left all my art in Puerto Rico, so I must begin new work, seems fitting since I have a new life now. Anxious to see where this new chapter in my life will take me.

"It's not enough to have lived. We should be
determined to live for something." Leo Buscaglia

Where do I even begin????

Much time has passed since I last posted. During this time, I have opened a gallery, closed a gallery and am in the process of reopening another gallery. We outgrew the other one and had a few professional issues with out business partner, so we moved on. So it goes.

The summer has been extremely busy. I had artwork exhibited in Vienna, New York, Sweden. Another exhibition in Florence beginning in Sep. and then in Oct. one in Paris. I really haven't had much time to paint, but was able to get into my studio today and get some paint on a canvas for a commission I have been putting off.

I did some major spring cleaning knowing that I will be spending much of my spare time in my studio and the new gallery. But I did manage some time for sailing, beach time and golf. I am looking forward to see what comes out of my studio now that I am in the mental frame of mind to start working again.

Alice Neel

Just watched a biography on Alice Neel the other night. I had forgotten how much I loved her work. Talk about balancing a career as an artist and motherhood, don't we all struggle with this?

Winds of Change!

I am participating in a group art exhibition in Malmo, Sweden beginning June 6 and have been invited to participate in an upcoming show in Florence, Italy on Sept. 4. I am truly looking forward to getting back into my studio and doing some serious work. It has been forever. There are some major changes taking place in my life right now, but soon I will be able to talk about them. These changes will eventually allow me to have more time to paint in my studio and once again be free to play.